Wednesday, August 27, 2014

What If You Fly?

When there's a lot of heavy things weighing on my mind I almost always find myself browsing the quotes section of Pinterest. And I don't really know why, but it's therapeutic for me in the sense that when I can find poems and stories to relate the things that are weighing on me to, I somehow feel like someone somewhere understands exactly what I'm feeling in that moment.

A few months ago I found a poem that really resonated with me. Much to my surprise, I came to find out that the poem was written by this insanely talented 19 year old girl from Australia, named Erin Hansen. Soon after, one of my best friends and I were discussing tattoo ideas that would be symbolic of our friendship and all that we've conquered together over the years. E.H.'s poem ended up being the one thing that gave us both all of the feels. We knew it was the one, especially considering the things surrounding both of us at this current time.

And so this past Saturday I got the words tattooed on me that mean everything to me in my current life's state.
There is freedom waiting for you,
On the breezes of the sky,
And you ask "What if I fall?"
Oh but my darling,
What if you fly?
-Erin Hansen 


This week has been full of jumps and it's been scary like when you were young and your friends would convince you to climb a tree and you would finally reach the top and have no idea how to get down. I knew it was coming but sometimes there's no way to truly prep yourself for big changes, plus I'm really not a great planner. Hence my lack of actually owning a planner. Also I'm really bad at climbing trees, so there's that. But it's been a long time coming and it's time for me to make new choices and take chances.

I've been in a serious rut and it's taking a toll on my happiness.

On Monday I gave my apartment complex notice that I'll be vacating my beloved Princess Palace in October. The apartment that brought me back to life. The place that gave me my independence and my sense of adulthood. The roof that saved me from the darkest place I've ever been in. I truly love my apartment and everything it stands for, but it's time. It's become a piece of this monotonous routine I've landed myself in and it's time to put it in my memories and move forward. It's time for me to make new memories in a new apartment.

Today I'm jumping once again. Today I'm giving my boss of three and a half years notice that I'll no longer be working here in 3-4 weeks (normal for this job, don't worry), depending on when he's able to find a replacement for me to train. While I'm grateful for the years I've spent here and the freedom it's given me to run my blog simultaneously in my uniform of yoga pants, once again, it has become a large piece of my monotonous routine and it's time for a change.

Before anyone asks, no, I'm not going full-time with blogging. I'd like to think I'm that savvy with all of this but I'm not and that's ok. There are opportunities on the horizon and I'm going to test those waters once I've done my time here at my current job. And, yes, it's terrifying. All of this is. Cutting ties with big parts of your life is never not scary, I don't think.

"What if I fall? Oh but my darling, what if you fly?"

Also I'm bringing rattails back. Bye.



*Huge thanks to Eva Marie Taylor for designing this for us!*

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82 comments:

  1. Are you headin to permanent residency in boyfriendland?

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  2. What an exciting adventure! I agree this tattoo symbolizes perfectly with where you seem to be at lately. I think it's so inspiring that you're taking such a big leap, even if it's scary. As someone who hates change, I know that takes a lot of courage!

    Cat
    http://oddlylovely.com

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  3. I'm obsessed with that poem/your tattoo. Like embarrassingly so. Also GOOD FOR YOU, the new apartment and job opportunities sound fabulous. You deserve to be happy. Bravo for making it happen.

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  4. Whitney I am SO SO happy and excited for your new life adventures, this tattoo is perfect. I'm really inspired by this post. I've been in a dark place the past 2 years, I am still a happy person (because that is who I am) but the past 2 years have been a struggle. I left a very dark relationship and moving out away from him was the biggest (scariest) leap of faith I have ever taken. I'm still in that free falling stage...things are scary I don't know if I'm falling or flying but everyday feels like I'm a bit more aerodynamic on my own. Growing my fairy princess wings!

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  5. I am so excited for you! I cannot wait to hear about this new journey!!
    xo

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  6. I am coming up on a year with my current company and I can still remember the butterflies I had when I quit my previous job - I was scared to leave familiarity but at the same time excited for new possibilities!! Such a great poem and quote!! Good Luck with your future endeavors and thanks for fueling my want for another tattoo!!
    xo

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  7. You gave us popcorn but said no butter...it DOES sound like you'll be moving to CO soon though.:)

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  8. Oh my gosh where are you moving??? What's happening???? Loved reading your thoughts and ideas. Teehee.

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  9. Oh my gosh Whitney, it's BEAUTIFUL!! And the poem actually gave me the chills and a little tear. GL with ALL of your endeavors my dear, it will all be ok! :)

    Lisa,xo

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  10. Well that is very exciting, love that tat girl. I'm a HUGE fan of jumping and going for your dreams, big or small, whatever makes YOU happy :) Life is short, and we only have 1. Can't wait to follow along.

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  11. Wishing you all the best. Here's to bigger and better things!

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  12. I've never really been into 'poetry' but my Pinterest boards can attest to my obsession with quotes (especially about fitness for some weird reason because I hate it) and I have never heard this poem before but reading it gave me tingles. I will probably have to pin it and maybe just smack it on a post-it for my continuous viewing pleasure. Thank you!

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  13. Wow, what changes! I'm proud you took that big leap of faith that will tilt your current world into something new, different, and hopefully...FUN!. Can't wait to hear more about it!

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  14. I've just recently become aware of this quote/poem and I think it is awesome! I wish you all of the best of luck. Sometimes change is a great thing and it sounds like it is going to be for you! You are a rockstar and are definitely going to fly!

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  15. one of my favorite Pinterest boards is my WORDS board. I started collecting beautiful quotes and sayings so that I can one day line my kids' walls with them - and this one... oh this poem is soooooooo going up. i love when some words hit your soul like a bitch slap an this one bitch slapped my soul fo sure. good luck in your journey. "Leap and the net will appear." <-another fave http://www.pinterest.com/Jen_at_DTWB/words/

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  16. How exciting! Big changes are scary but usually end up being the best choices ever! Can't wait to see what's next for you! Please tell us, are you going to be closer to Bear!?

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  17. I move on Sunday. Just to a new apartment, but it's still refreshing to change. Like a mini adventure. It's also a huge pain the ass, the moving process, (even though my dog has more things than I do....) so good luck friend! Have you found a new place?

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  18. I adore your tattoo. That poem has actually been the background on my computer for a while now. I LOVE it!

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  19. Wow! Love that poem! I think that this is something that everyone needs to hear multiple times throughout their life.

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  20. Love your tattoo!! Wishing you all the best in your future endeavors!

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  21. That's ballsy. I wish I had those balls. Instead I'll just sit here at my desk and day dream about one day when I can actually do all of what you just said.

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  22. I quit my day job for a multitude of reasons and am now full-time blogging. I have no right to be full-time blogging since mine currently brings in $0 in income. The truth is though that we all have to take leaps at various times and when we are ready. I'm glad that you're taking yours and doing what will help you feel better. Also, I wore yoga pants into a fancy office with a fancy top. I mean sometimes they just look like black pants, right? haha.

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  23. I'm a little obsessed with this tat...the words, the placement, everything. Amazing. And I'm hoping that you fly, sister...so ready to see where life takes you!

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  24. I love that poem and the meaning behind it. I'm proud of you for being true to yourself and doing what you need to do. I hope this new adventure leads you to happiness and exciting opportunities, whatever it is.

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  25. I love that tattoo!! Also I'm happy for you for taking charge of your own happiness. It's so easier to stay in a rut because it's easier than the alternative, but you'll miss out on so much by never taking a chance. It is always ALWAYS better to look back and say at least I tried than it is to look back and wish you had.

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  26. wishing you always have wind under your wings and soar to any height you wish. Luck be the charm I send to you

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  27. love the quote and love the design and the placement!

    + yaaay exciting life changes!!

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  28. love, loVE, LOVE the tattoo!! I'm proud of you for taking such a big leap with the job. Change is hard and from the sounds of it, we both have big changes coming our way. You chose yours and mine was chosen for me, but either way change is coming. Here's to hoping we both fly!

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  29. I love it. I am in exactly the same place. Sucky job, the wrong house with all of the memories... stuck. I'm scared to take the leap. I'm proud of you. You got this.

    P.S. I have an appointment for birthday ink in 2 weeks. Maybe when I figure out what I'm getting it'll be what I need to push me forward!

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  30. Love the tattoo and the meaning behind it!! I too sometimes go to Pinterest and look at the quotes when I am feeling down or in need of a little inspiration... it is amazing what you can find there!! Best of luck with your new adventure... starting something new is always scary, but I am sure it will all be worth it in the end!!

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  31. This post is speaking to me today, woman! I have been ITCHING for change in the past few months but have felt completely stuck, completely at a loss of how to change, what to change etc. Thanks for the reminder that sometimes we just have to DO what feels right and see what happens! xo

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  32. That's absolutely beautiful Whitney. And I think we can all relate to that in our own unique ways. That being said - darn you and all your whitty quotes and perfect tattoos!!! Like you don't want to be a biter, but damn you have some really great ideas :-) Anyway - on a more serious note, good luck!!! I'm sure you'll be amazing in the next chapter of your life... and hopefully, whatever you'll be doing - you can still wear yoga pants to work!!

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  33. Yaaaa! Giving your notice is so scary, but so liberating. I'm excited for you and can't wait to hear what's next on the horizon.

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  34. I am so in love with your tattoo. Good luck on the next chapter of your life!

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  35. I love your choices for ink. While I do love bigger pieces with lots of bright color and detail, sometimes the small, plain ones are perfect, too!

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  36. eeek eek eeeeek, must be so terrifying but so, so thrilling and liberating at the same time! i think the tattoo says it all!!! looking forward to hearing about all that's ahead of you :)

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  37. I'm not a big fan of tattoos, mostly because I'm deathly afraid of needles, but I love love love this! Taking a big leap of faith is seriously so scary, but sometimes you just have to trust yourself and do it.

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  38. Great tattoo... Good luck in your next adventure!

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  39. I've done this too! Trust me, even if it's hard the outcome is so worth it. I dropped everything I was doing and drove all the way to Texas to live there (I'm from the East Coast) and even though I went back home after a few months I would totally do it all over again, even with the tough times. I'm really happy for you! You'll be great at whatever you do...wait does this mean you might be moving closer to bear...

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  40. love the tattoo and meaning behind it. good for you for taking a chance!

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  41. That tattoo is awesome!!! Did it hurt there?! totally worth it, I love it!

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  42. YES! you already know how i feel, so double high five for making the first big steps! :)

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  43. Love that tattoo! Good luck in your new adventure!

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  44. that is so so poignant and appropriate. Best of luck on your new adventures!

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  45. Oh my goodness, I love this quote and the tattoo and I am absolutely DYING to know what these new adventures you're heading for will be and what they will bring you.

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  46. Love, love your tattoo and the fact that you are quite literally leaping away from monotony into the abyss of spontaneity. If there's anything I've learned about you from reading your blog it's that you are one resilient person. You got this :)

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  47. I love that poem! So neat. What a crazy exciting time for you!!!!

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  48. LOVED the poem! I too have recently made a lot of changes and while it's been super scary, I also think it's super exciting. Good luck in your journey!!

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  49. Are you going to grace me with your presence and move to Denver?! :)

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  50. Love that poem. Take flight Unicorn. Cheers!!!

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  51. LOVE the tattoo!! I gotta admit, I feel like I vicariously live through you sometimes because I am too much of a wimp to get a tattoo. Haha. Anyway, I am so excited for you and all of these new changes that are coming your way... and can't wait to hear more details!!!

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  52. Maybe I'll just let you pick the placement of my next tattoo. Also. I'm so excited about what its coming your way :) :) :)

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  53. I'm so beyond in love with this. You are too cool for school and YAY for change and gorgeous tats.

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  54. I love your new tattoo! I am so excited for you and all that awaits you on the horizon. Go spread those wings!

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  55. Omg!!!! This is one of my favorite poems and I've always said if I could actually get the balls, I wanted that exact same line tattooed across the bottom outside of my foot! I'm a baby though. But I loooooove yours!!!! Congrats on taking that leap, trusting your wings, and taking off!! Excited to see where those wings take you!!

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  56. I love that poem - I've pinned it several times myself! Best of luck on all future endeavors! I'm in a similar position and it's scary but exciting at the same time.

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  57. I am so excited for the new changes for you and hope nothing but the best for you! Change can be scary, but it is so good to get out of our comfort zones and let the wind take us under our wings and allow us to fly. xoxoxo
    Eva

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  58. Very inspirational. I absolutely love that quote and the placement of the tattoo. Beautiful choice. I find myself feeling more anxious when I'm in a monotonous routine. I don't know if that happens to you, too. But anyways, I wish you the best of luck with your new adventures!

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  59. Beautiful words to live by!

    Congratulations on these exciting changes that are coming your way. I need to make some changes, but I admit that I'm afraid to take the leap.

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  60. I love the font of your tatoo. You have a great sorry behind this tatoo; excited for the changes coming up.

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  61. It's a beautiful tattoo, not only the words but the placement and the font/calligraphy is perfect!
    Helena/ helenaterry.blogspot.co.uk

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  62. So exciting and scary! Everyone gets in a rut. Some of us are stuck and have to make minor changes to get out of it. When you're young and are able to do it, go for it! I wish I had "gone for it" more when I was able! Follow your heart and everything else will fall in line!

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  63. I love this post so much I want to hug it.

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  64. That poem <3 And I am excited to hear about your new adventures!

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  65. Yea, for new tattoos & for tattoos that help us heal & keep us grounded. I love it! :)

    Mandie ~ http://badbrewpack.blogspot.com/

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  66. Good luck with your new adventures! Are you moving to CO to be with Bear? :)

    I also love that tattoo!

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  67. Good luck, love. I'm truly happy for you. Recently, I did the exact same thing: new apartment, new city, new job and singledom. It all happened in a very short time period and it was incredibly overwhelming. But in the same sense, it was exactly what I needed.

    I hope you find everything you're looking for and the happiness that lies in going for your dreams <3

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  68. i really like that, what if i fly?

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  69. how fantastic! although scary, its so good to step out of your comfort zone. It makes you feel alive!

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  70. Love love love that poem!!! Fantastic decision by the two of you:)
    Happy Friday!

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  71. I love your new tattoo! New things are scary. I just randomly decided to go back to college and I'm broke, in a new city, with no family and no job...I can completely understand that quote...What if you fly?

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  72. New things can be scary. So scary they may paralyze us and not let us take action... But you are so right! What if you fly? I myself have been struggling with new life situation recently. And I'm scared and don't know what to do. But you know what? Your post is very inspiring. It is good to know there are people out there who are scared as well but they decide to overcome the fear. And fly. Hope everything turns out well for you;)

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  73. That poem is beautiful! I also find myself browsing the quotes on pinterest when things are tough. It really is therapeutic!

    Eilidh xx

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  74. Nice tattoo, so meaningful, so nicely written :)

    http://dreamland1234.blogspot.com/

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